Good Morning! This past week has been hormonal for me. Highs and lows. Although I am not sure at times, I can handle the hot flashes. The crazy mood ups and downs is so crazy. One day, I am going to conquer the world, and the next, I want to burrow down in some whole somewhere.

Monday was aesome high as I rode on a birthday bike ride WITH a friend that turned 67.  We rode 67 miles. Yes I said 67 miles for 67 years all in one day. Took us 8:24:36 of ride time and 3:20:00 of rest time. We were both sore for a couple of days.
Tuesday, I worked on the pictures from the bike ride so the friend could have them sooner.
Wednesday, I just laid around and nursed the sunburn on my legs from the bikeride and waited for mojo to return.
Thursday is ladies hormone lunch. I get to talk out my frustrations and listen to others encourage me that I am not the only one having to deal with issues.
Oh Wednesday was also the day that threw me for a loop. As a Christian, I strongly believe that my goal is to be and become more Christlike. With our love for God comes a responsibility to give guidance, encouragement, love, and correction to our brothers and sisters. This world is not a friendly place. I, on the other hand, feel that the whole world should be a perfect balance of love and harmony operating within the guidelines scripture has laid out for us. I tend to be a very black and white mentality person. The yellow line on the road is there for our protection and guidance. We may drift occasionally over the line, but we are not to play with the line to see how many times we can cross it before we hit something. Some act as if the yellow line is a suggestion, dancing back and forth regularly. My whole heart is happy to live on my side of the yellow line.
With that being said, a dear friend announced this week that she not only wants to ignore the yellow line, she wants to flaunt her defiance to everything she has been raised to believe. I know we grow and change, adopting new understandings of who we are. My problem was not with her announcement of her engagement to her girlfriend. My problem was the CHRISTIANS who stood up and cheered her. I expect evildoers to cheer on sin, but not those of us who are supposed to be fleeing all appearances much more the outright defiance to scripture.
If I announced tomorrow in my prayer group that my husband and I can no longer limit ourselves to one partner and therefore we will be "mixing it up." I would not expect my fellow believers to stand up and cheer. Sin is sin. My fat is a problem in my life. I am constantly battling with gluttony and it shows. Scripturally I do not expect to get rounds of applause when I gain more tonage.
Needless to say that whole situation had me thrown. Again not that she announced that she did not care what scripture said about it, but that my fellow "Christians" encouraged her to "slap God in the face" and to ignore any scriptures concerning the issue.
I do not ever expect fellow drivers to stand and cheer the other driver that wants to defy the yellow line. If you see someone going the wrong way, you get out of the way, and do everything in your power to bring some kind of correction to provide safety to society.
I just did not expect Christians to stand up and cheer on a sinful behavior.

Amidst all this drama and emotion, I mention to my husband last night that I feel so totally overwhelmed with the packing and cleaning. He took it as a whine and complain and instead of "do you want to talk about it?" he says, "You have all day. I go to work 11 hrs a day. If you went to a job for 11 hours. . ." at this point I hear nothing, but I think, "Seriously!!!!!"

I feel ugly, aged, fat, indulgent, unappreciated,  and "seriously????"

And now I sit on Friday morning needing to prepare for a camping and caving trip this weekend. Maybe the time away will refresh me. It best refresh me because it will be a mess next week trying to get everything put back away. And since I am the stay at home, the putting away and reorganizing falls to me. But then again, a friend recently told me "She can do it all!"

This is probably one of those posts that should just be deleted.